TIME IS NO LONGER MINE

 My child: “Mom!!! I'm hungry, can I have a snack?”
Me: “I just gave you a snack.”
My child: “But I’m still hungry.”

My child: “Mom!!! When is dad coming home?”
Me: “He was just in for lunch it will be a while.”
*Crash*
Me: “Girls what fell?”
My child: “Mom she broke the closet door again.”

Seconds later...
Me: “Get off the kitchen counter we just had lunch I'll get you a snack in a little bit.”

Me:“Stop jumping on the sofa!!”

Me: “Do not let the dog in he just ran though mud!!!”

These our the conversations or things I say almost daily.


        Yes my days are filled with breaking up fights, time outs, hugs, laughs, laundry, cleaning up spills, and the list goes on and on. I wouldn’t change it for the world. It’s only  March and at times I’m counting down till they start chopping rye. Something about the excitement of that first harvest of the year makes us all a little excited and happier after a long the winter indoors. Yes, it means long, long hours for Blake but being in the fields is something he loves and the kids love riding with him and packing up lunch and supper to deliver to him. In some strange way the crazy business that comes with spring is a breath of fresh air, and a break from the same old same from winter.

     I have heard moms say they feel like they don’t know how to be their own person after having kids, or needing "me time".  I have no answer at all for this, not even sure I have thought much about it. I have thought about locking myself in my room for a few minutes for a mom time-out now and then. That said, I know moms are not the only ones who wish they could put themselves in a time out. Maybe it’s not so much being your own person after having kids, but being a better new version of yourself. I’m not the same person I was before kids, but is that a bad thing?  I would hope that I am a better version of myself. I have been blessed with a husband, and three children. I now want to be the best wife and mom that I can be. Time is no longer mine, it revolves around them and the farm. This is not to say that having a hobby or an outlet isn’t something a lot of us need or want, believe me I do. I just want to remember to view my life as a mom as a blessing that is not to be taken for granted. Rather than how can I have something separate from that. I want to enjoy the days that revolve around kids, cows, field work, housework and giggles. I know in a few years when my days a more full of the farm work, house work, and less of the child care I will miss the messes and diapers and sound of little feet chasing each other.